Thursday, June 20, 2013

Point of View/Characterization


           
An author's voice is one of the most important aspects of writing. It's the author's ability to connect and engage the reader with his or her writing, to tell a great and entertaining story while also revealing themes and truths that the reader will find relatable. For instance, what you're reading now is MY voice--it's the way Matt Perrino writes, describes, and communicates to you as the reader. It's this concept of voice that distinguishes the great writers from the mediocre ones. 

I also believe that, to be one of the best, authors have to be able to give their protagonists a voice of their own. In other words, each protagonist should have a different way of articulating emotions, thoughts, actions, and goals; no two protagonists should sound the same. For example, let's say you and I walk into a building. We are in the same place, at the same time, seeing the same exact things. But your description of the setting and circumstances will be completely different than my own. No two people are the same; we are all unique, and even though we may share similar views, our perceptions of the world around us will always differ. The best writers will try to apply this mentality to their writing. Every protagonist will have their own voice, their own way of describing things, a specific way of communicating their story. There have been times where I've read different books by the same author and have walked away saying, "The protagonist of this book sounds exactly like the protagonist in that book." There's no distinction, nothing to differentiate one from the other. That's because the author is telling the story as HE or SHE would tell it; not necessarily the way the character would.  Some of the best writers out there will inhabit the mind of the character, will stop and ponder,  "How would this character tell this story? Would they use this word or that one? How would they describe this setting?" etc. 

 A few months ago, I was working on two novels simultaneously (on a side note, one of them is currently halfway done and has been sent to various people for opinions and critiques. If you'd like to be one of these people, let me know! I'm always eager for opinions). The protagonists in each story are similar. Tyler and Andrew are both in their twenties, male, and deeply disturbed. However, the voice of each character is, hopefully, different. To demonstrate this, I've taken a short scene from Tyler's story and altered it, writing it in a way that would fit Andrew's mentality. In this scene, the protagonist has just trespassed into the lobby of an abandoned mental asylum.

Tyler:
 I breathe in the asylum. Must, dirt, staleness. The smell of something that’s far past its expiration date. Our flashlights, along with the moonlight steaming through the shattered windows and gaping doorway, illuminate the world around us. The interior of the place looks even worse. As if the hospital has been rotting from the inside out for the past few decades. Thick cobwebs curtain the windows. Debris and dust cover the black-and-white tiled floor. The white walls are smudged with dirt, the paint chipped and peeling with decay like skin off a corpse. Their vandalized surfaces shout colorful obscenities at us. “Fuck you.” “Kiss my ass.” “Smoke weed everyday.”
            That last one I spray-painted myself.  
            Some walls flaunt holes the size of bodies, turning them into shortcuts into adjacent rooms. Smiling, I imagine a lunatic in a strait jacket running into these walls over and over again, until he comes bursting through the other side.
 The front desk sits directly across the entrance. A young assistant had probably once sat there, behind that semi-circle structure, smiling and nodding and saying to anyone who visited, “Hello, how may I help you?” while patients screamed with anguish and laughed maniacally in the background, as if the noises didn’t bother her at all. Now all that the desk holds is debris and dust and dirt. The little door that leads behind it is missing, torn off its hinges. I find it discarded in the waiting room, where the only things waiting are vacant, wooden chairs. This area must’ve been chaos in its prime. I envision families waiting with hungry anticipation and forlorn faces, as their disturbed relatives slump absent-mindedly in their seats or dash about the room like rabid animals. Those families probably used to pray to the lost crucifix outside that their demented kin would be strapped up and stowed away, far out of their lives and concern.

 Now here's that same scene, only described using Andrew's voice: 


            A musty, stale odor was there to greet us. If it weren’t for our flashlights and the moonlight shining through the nonexistent windows and entrance, the asylum would’ve been pitch-black. The lobby was even more decrepit than the hospital’s exterior. Cobwebs veiled the broken windows and every corner in the room. A thin film of dust shrouded the black-and-white tiled floor, with pieces of the asylum strewn about here and there. The walls, which had once been white, were smudged with dirt, and the paint was cracked and peeling. Their surfaces shouted obscenities at us, spray-painted in an array of different colors. “Fuck you.” “Kiss my ass.” “Smoke weed everyday.” Other walls had been vandalized in more drastic ways. They stood partially demolished, with holes the size of bodies acting like shortcuts into adjacent rooms. 
The front desk had a semi-circle shape and sat across from the main entrance. Its surface was covered with more debris, more dust. The little, swinging door that led behind it was missing, just like the door in the main entrance. After more wandering, I found it--the door to the front desk, that is--discarded in the waiting room. It was an eerie and foreboding sight. The area was full of wooden chairs, vacant and waiting for new patients. 
   
Hopefully, you can see the difference. Tyler tends to use short, fragmented thoughts, but every now and then, he'll whip out a long, complex description. He also has a vivid imagination and utilizes it to create scenarios that can be correlated to whatever he's experiencing at the moment. Tyler is also a very dark character and uses images of death to describe what he's seeing, i.e. comparing the peeling of paint to the skin peeling off of a corpse. He's an intelligent character and likes to use witty metaphors and similes whenever he can. And then there's Andrew. Andrew's voice is similar to my own, which makes him much easier to write than Tyler. He speaks in a simpler, more traditional style, without the use of fragments. He's more formal in his speech and doesn't possess the same imagination as Tyler. He's also not the type to write graffiti or vandalize a public place, even if it is abandoned (he's also not the type to trespass into an abandoned facility in the first place, but for the sake of this demonstration, I made an exception).  Hopefully, through this blog post, you can see the distinction between Tyler and Andrew--the differences between their thought processes, descriptive methods, and mindsets. 

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Nightmare

I find that there are two kinds of nightmares: mild and extreme. With mild, you wake up from the nightmare but you're not too affected, not too shaky, and you drift off back to sleep almost immediately.  But with extreme--with extreme you wake up shaking, and once you realize that it was only a dream, you thank God for sparing you that terrible reality and allowing you to wake up in the safety of your bed. That's the kind of nightmare I experienced last night.

In this particular dream, a few of my friends (code names: DYSON, BIZNESS, and GIBBONS) and I had been apparently turned into 1930s gangsters. That part was actually sort of cool. But things took a horrifying turn when we were all captured by a rival gang. The four of us were taken to a warehouse, where we came face-to-face with the gang's ruthless leader. I can remember him distinctly. He was somewhat pudgy with a thick reddish brown beard, a bowler hat, and a brown pinstriped suit. His face isn't reminiscent of anyone I know, which can only mean that my mind created him for the purpose of this dream--a very strange thought in itself. We sat on a crappy, green sofa (a very hospitable way to treat your captives) while dozens of men in suits and fedora hats pointed their Tommy guns in our direction. We were all sweating, frightened for our lives.

"Are you really going to kill us right now?" asked Bizness, wringing his hands together nervously.

"Yes," said the gang leader with a smile. "But not right now."

Not right now. This maniac was going to make us wait for our deaths. Slow, psychological torture. We all started begging for our lives, like little kids who had just had their favorite toys taken away from them. I can remember Dyson asking if we could be given another week, just one more week PLEASE, to live. But the gang leader just grinned and shook his head.

After minutes of fruitless begging, we all fell quiet, eyes on the floor, hands trembling in our laps. At that moment, my friends had no choice but to accept the inevitable: we were all going to die.

But I just couldn't accept that. In my terror, I began to pace the room, wondering what I had done wrong to deserve such a terrible fate and then wondering what that terrible fate actually was. How would I die? Think about that. What an absurd question to ask yourself. It's a question that, despite the absurdity of this dream,  we as humans can actually understand and relate to. For some reason, I was terrified that this gang would bind me to a chair, throw me in a pit, and then bury me under pounds of cement, forcing the stuff down my throat. A gruesome, horrifying way to go.

But my mind was also being tormented by other thoughts. I kept telling myself, I'm 25. 25 years old, and I'm going to die. 25 years old, and I hadn't accomplished a damn thing. It was too young, there were still so many things that I had left to do. Since waking up, I've forgotten a lot of them, but here's some that I do remember: I wanted to get married. I wanted to have kids and be the world's greatest dad. I wanted to know what it was like to have your own family. And because of the circumstances, I would never be able to experience any of that. But the thing that upset me most was that I would never be published, that my talents and ideas were going to waste, that I had started half a dozen books and would never be able to complete them, that I had so many great ideas and stories, and now, I'd never be able to share them with anyone. This was the worst part of it all. Worse than being drowned in a pit of cement, worse than never getting married or having kids.

When I woke up from this nightmare, I couldn't believe that I was in my bed. The dream had felt so real, but my God, was I happy that it wasn't. But at the same time, it was also a reminder of my goals. So I took out my laptop and immediately began to write--because I refuse to let that dream become my reality. Now you're probably asking yourself, why the hell are you sharing this with me? Well, the answer is simple. Even though this was just an absurd dream, I believe that it can apply to our reality. Think about it for a second. If the next few hours were all that you had left to live, how would you perceive your life? Would you be happy and satisfied with it? Did you make the most of your talents, of the opportunities that came to you? Or would you have been like me, regretful and unfulfilled, wishing that you had just a little bit more time?